I think I have over a dozen "cam", "camglynn", "camglynn-com", "camglynn-com-final" folders from the past ~5 years. 3 years ago, I published my personal site for the first time. I think it was an Astro site ???. A white page with black sans-serif "Cam Glynn".
I had hundreds of iterations of what this site could be (mostly in my head, some manifested in random Figma files) - and they were all pretty good. Always better than "Cam Glynn" on a blank white page.
But, they were never real.
I never published. I never shipped. This has been somewhat of a recurring theme for me. I've been working on ~the same thing for over a year now. "switchboard", "switchboard-v2", "switchboard-final", "sw-turbo", "sw-next", "sw-sw", "sw-final" -- it literally never stops. I have at least 100 repos for ~the same thing. Over, and over, and over again. Some people aim for a daily commit streak... I'm pretty sure I have a daily spin-up-a-new-repo-and-build-the-same-thing-but-slightly-different streak.
I don't necessarily think that this is a bad thing. However, if I keep this going, I'm afraid I will literally never ship anything.
I suffer quite badly from the taste-execution gap. I am able to feel what's good much more strongly than I am able to create what's good. And the more I hone this skill, the stronger this gap becomes. I iterate endlessly, but mostly in my head. My ideas are good, and they get even better as I obsessively loop over them. But as my ideas get better, my ability to execute on them does not grow in tandem.
And so, I'm doing something that I really don't want to do. I'm going to start shipping shit. It's going to be unpolished and look absolutely terrible to me. At least right now. But I'm going to start here, by shipping this. I'm going to write my mind, build my ideas, and share them with everyone, starting with you.